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was posted to JJ. din even wanna go JJ at all de lo. cldnt get to SA. i knew nothing abt JJ at all seriously. din noe anyone there.. din noe where it is.. just heard nothing abt JJ at all. ya. but dunno y just had an impression of the JJ council badge. i haf no idea y. ya.
orientation changed my life. thanks to my ogls weixiang zhengxiang kaihui n nianci. OG28 rocks la. met great ppl.. like ena.. best budd in og28.. den puiyeng who ponned the camp.. haha. n lots more like shiqing joel lisu chiahoe jingzhe lejing choun eng n many many more!!
posted to 06S07!! had quite a number of og mates like puiyeng lisu choun eng lejing shiqing n jingzhe in the same claz! hehh had a wonderful ct ms lim. yaa i pon sch to crash sa n got caught by her =( hahhaa. met more ppl like uhh jingming.. emma.. fiona.. ashley.. jacob *cough* hahaha. had fun ponnin lessons together n slacking together in sch.. still rmb lao-ing yusheng during cny =) haha.
was in a dilemma to stay or not to. actualli i was plannin not to.. but i joined ogl anw o.O ya felt quite bad tt i was still wavering when i just joined. hai. but nvm i stayed on anw n we all rocked orientation down =) was in GAMES attach! ahaha ya it was fun la
but i was down b4 orientation was rocked down. hahha. nvm. yaa i was super super ill. din even stay for the whole orientation camp.. onli joined my OG in the evenings.. n on the last day. yaaaaa OG 13!!! hehh. cool campers. mm ppl like sengloong yihsong kristal ziliang abigail. still rmb dunno 1st or 2nd admin day got someone frm my OG say i chio. ahahha. super cute la. itz a girl btw. oops but i cant rmb who. n i was like super blur thruout or sth la. was takin attendance.. think i asked ziliang for his name like thrice? haha.
anw theres a person i wanna thank! n tts jianrong. haha. thanks for those times we've shared durin 1st 3 months yupp. haha. studyin in the library esp. cant forget tt. hahahha. no wonder my results in term 2 were quite good.
06s01!! hoho. din haf a good impression at 1st.. everyone like super guai kia n dao lo. 4h2 claz la wa sian. haha. but yupp turned out greaaatttt! hohoho. ya thruout my whole journey in jj ive been stuck wif puiyeng la. same claz again!! hehh n met more great clazmates like cheryl zhiming vasan n more!! woohoo. n ct ms loon. yay! term 2 was smoothsailing. results were er rather good. yupp.
cluster camp! was in scdc attach! hoho. got to noe bryan better.. n yayy got to operate moving lights n the smoke machines. ahahha fun fun. together wif bryan. n right beside us doing avac were chengxun n WEIMING!! omg cant believe it la. just realised tt like 1 month plus ago onli when we were talkin abt cluster camp. super coincidental la but damn i din haf an impression of him then. hahaha. had a slightly better impression of ziliang then. super funny la cant forget him sayin "argh dun crush me" when i hugged him on the last day of camp. yeaa. tt was the debrief tt realli realli made everyone cry. ya ah thinkin abt it cluster camp realli rocked.
june hols. cant realli rmb wad i was doing. but i got a lot a lot fatter. hahaha. ya basically i was slping.. den eating.. den slping almost immediately.. eating.. n ya it just goes on.
term 3! became chairman of wushu n ld club! uh ya actualli we're still called the Lion Dance Troupe. o.O it wasnt easy n it still isnt easy to manage. hai.
student leaders' camp! nice. ahahha loved ballroom dancing the most. chacha n waltz! n got to try archery n golf too. haha. it was a v v v different camp i would say. but it was realli good too. just a bit slack n boring.
haha i guess it was the most memorable term. student leaders' investiture.. sports carnival.. started to get to noe wm =) still rmb him slapping himself.. haa n the girls behind teasing peiqi. v cute la haha. 30th aug. haha super memorable. cheesecake.. firedrill.. mass yoga rehearsal.. lion dance.. stayed till quite late playin around.. wif the councillors outside goin crazy o.O the fire alarm even went off. n 2 guys sending me home o.O can nv forget the awkwardness. super amusing. but damn sweet. so ya tts how i got to noe wm..
n oso wanna thank ziliang. woh like realli realli la. i dunno how n when.. but he came so much closer into my life n realli made a difference. started talkin online.. smsing.. nothing much. i didnt think much abt it actualli =/ until he started greeting me good morning like almost every morning.. callin me over the phone just to say good morning n then hanging up. i thought he was realli weird. think puiyeng or dunno who said he likes me.. ya think im dense or sth.. so ya i din realise it. the nights when he walked me home from belly dance.. tt was durin the ICRC period. n tt nite when i stayed in sch on sat till 10pm wif carrie sherman n benja.. he came frm home n bought dinner for me. haa on my request but still super nice of him la haha. even though we cldnt realli communicate well.. hmm like it was a rather 1-sided conversation most of the time.. guess i enjoyed listening to him talk.. n also his company. there's a lot more to the cool exterior of him. i was v touched bcos actualli during tt period of time i was v down.. n then he slowly came in n lifted me up. n also.. he had given me so much more than i had given him.. like changing himself to suit me better since we were realli so different. im proud to say tt he has realli changed for the better.. n just having the heart to change himself for me realli touched me. to ziliang, im sorry tt i didnt reciprocate much. thanks for being there for me all the while. im also damn sorry tt i hurt u so much. arghh. tt im realli super sorry. n i felt v v helpless tt i cld do nothing abt it. but i realli had to do it. im glad ure happier now too. thanks for graciously taking tt step back to grant me the new happiness in my life. Thank you, Zi Liang. u may still be unfeeling towards me now, but im still waiting for u to accept me as ur friend.
hai. mm yea so anw sept.. ha. 1st 'date' wif wm? haha i asked him out for supper cos i was just nice on my way home frm town wif zhixiong. uh ya in the end i din eat o.O watched him eat. haa funny la. n we talked a lot a lot =) clicked super well i guess. it was a beautiful nite. n then durin their medan trip. i chose to walk to the diverging point. i had to make a choice cos i din want it to drag on both sides =( so so so many ppl kept asking me.. abt my choice btwn the 2. but i din haf the ans myself. until the day they came back. it ws at the airport tt i got my ans.
haha. so ya tts how me n wm came so far all the way here. from 17th sept.
end of sch year.. kinda sad la some teachers not gonna teach us next year =( results not good la. haha just thought of PW.. totalli threw it out of my mind. thanks hweeting sheremy n jaron! we completed it!! hahaha.
hols during nov.. i cant rmb wad i was doin other than OP n prepping for yunnan trip. haha weird.
YUNNAN!!! SCDC 1! met a lot more ppl! yewmun loga shuna amir dania amira chengxun benja leonard chendi chinchye kaiting sherman ziyan n my girlfriend aka buddy JACINDA!! ahahaha. n cant forget the sweet girl from sizhong whom i stuck to during the campfire.. n gave me a scarf n a card. lan dongmei, xie xie ni! the students at sizhong haf realli given us so much la. realli melted my heart. itz like wif them around.. i dun even care abt not wearing my jacket or gloves even though itz like minus 10? ya. cos they wear so much less than we do.. n wif them around i can feel the warmth already =) i still miss the cold n their warmth. i miss the food.. strawberries! super long bus rides.. the stars.. mountains.. n everything!!!! arghh =(
trip to thailand! wonderful too. the trip.. not realli the company. the shopping.. the mini bus rides.. the slping.. pigging out on food.. the dogs.. haha. the magnificent SUNSETS!! the island life at kohchang. the alcazar cabaret.. uh ya itz like a musical kinda thing.. wif all transexuals. super chio la omg. anw itz v romantic there la. esp at kohchang. hehh can go there for honeymoon.
nus xperience pharmacy camp 06! hoho got to noe ppl frm other jcs! CG 9! cg leader alvin.. n cg mates lijie lionel shiqing denise lydia wingsum charlotte fanny n rachel! haha. love the card games n slackin in the tv room at nite. n the games too. GAME OF LIFE!!! best game played at a camp man. cool. but sadly im not v interested in pharmacy. haha so ya.
prep for orientation'07 n OGL camp! yayy FAMILY 6 OG 29!! ahahha. felt quite bad tt i cldnt make it for like 2 of the meetings? ya. was quite lost. but yupp we're all on the right track now i guess. itz the final lap now! =)
christmas. hmm. i dun usualli haf any memorable christmas de la. but guess this is the best so far. we shd haf just gone for sandwiches instead of fish n co. hahaha got scammed. but ya realli made me realise itz the company tt truly truly matters.. even though sometimes occasion n ambience plays a part too.
dun wanna talk abt grad nite. rarr.
hmm ok the last day of me being 16.. 27 dec 06. haha damn memorable i'll nv forget it man. hahahaha.
n the first day of being 17 too. on my birthday.. 28 dec 06. super memorable oso ahahha. sshhh. almost the whole day was spent at wm's house anw. ok la more than a day. n now i love his house so much i keep missing it. =( hehh n his mom's cooking too. playin guessing fists at the dinner table n eating chilli. hahha. loved the cake 'surprise' too =) n the drinking.. n death note 2! haha.
n the year came to an end wif another few slacky days.. slacking at home.. slping.. o2 jamming.. blah. oh n tonight's the 4th consecutive nite tt wm's stayin over at my house. omg itz like 5 days 4 nites.. n he's off straight to sch for another 5 days for nite for orientation prep n orientation! hahahha. oops. talkin abt 2007 stuff alr when this is abt 2006.
ahh ok tts abt it. a rather brief but not v brief summary. the best thing was realli gettin to noe weiming la =) so yea. i love you weiming =D
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ytd i was still feelin quite bad all over again.. hmm tt like actualli i still haf a lot of stuff tt i hafnt done yet in 2006.. n it was the last day already but i was doing nothing for the past few days. seriously i dunno wad ive been doing =/ n like i keep having moodswings.. even though i try hard not to =( i think itz not realli tt i haf moodswings.. but ive just been emotionally weak.. so i get affected easily. i realli dunwan to leh =( i wanna be strong. but i guess itz gonna take some time for me to uhh recover? actualli i realli haf no idea y im like tt now.
but anw my biggest worry is gone! =D so yay.
ah last yr had been so so so eventful. omg. too much for me to take. realli wanna sum up the yr.. but i dunno how to. haha. arghhh still hafnt finished blogging abt yunnan n thailand yet. hahaha. hai.
sch's startin! im so excited abt orientation! =D yay. haa im kinda lookin forward to sch too. cos it'll probably make me haf fewer moodswings. so ya. but i hafnt done my hw yet. gonna piaaa tmr. copying i mean.
ah now my next biggest worry is cca =( wushu n lion dance. haiii. lion dance.. we hafnt even started learnin lo pls. n cny is coming up le haha diee. wushu oso. performance for cny.. n comp in april. arghhhhhhhhhhhh.
ah nvm. anw, i believe tt every yr gets better! haha yupp. so far 2006 has been the best yr of my life =) n wif tt 1 guy in my life, we'll go further together. yupp yupp.
hmm itz like now everytime i cry, i wld b touched at the same time too, because he's always there to catch my tears whenever they fall. but i dun wanna b so dependent on him anymore.
im havin lots of mixed feelings now again. boredom, stress, anticipation, sadness, uncertainty.. blah. but but but. im gonna be positive! gonna spend 24 hrs to try to settle as much stuff as i can.. den recharge myself for ORIENTATIONNN n school! =) yay.
new year resolution! hmm. uh i usualli dun come up wif this. but since itz such a crucial year.. i'll do it. ok ya i will study harder ok!! haha. duh. hmm. i wun pon lectures le. n i'll do tutorials! n i'll make sure my cca or ccas (since we're gonna separate again) will be passed down in good hands. n i'll b stronger! yupp. n uhh. i'll try to make weiming study HARD oso =/ i noe he'll try so ya we can do this together.
hmm suddenly thought of the last day at yunnan.. the qn abt if the plane back to singapore was to crash.. wads the thing at tt time tt i wld b proudest of in my life.. yupp. thought thru it then.. n my ans is.. im damn proud to b my parents' child! yupp realli realli. n to weiming, thank buddha i found you.
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